Self-Contemplation About disappearance.
07th July 2018, 12.48 AM. If i can tell a bit about summary of my life, then it's safe to said that it's shattered to the unimaginable state, i cant hold this grief, my work's becoming uneasy, people keep tricking me, and no one will hear my stupid anxiety. At this moment, i don't really understand about my own decision, i never know about my own purpose, i dont know why im still alive until now, hell, even i cant think clearly when writing this post. I know that i shouldn't care about people's decision at all, but all the event that was just flashed on my very eyes keeping my mind to perpetually think about possible outcome and its problem solving method, sadly, it drag myself into the problem itself, just for the sake of.. as i said, i dont know why. I have a dream too, its generic i can say, i want to make people happy, its a backfire because it ended by them keep tricking me, lie and manipulated me, and just leave me when i cant do anything ...